Being Tongue Tied

This is a blog post that I wrote on my phone this past week on Thursday, September 13, 2012.  I have not had a chance to post it until now.

I've only been a mother for two short weeks. Everyday it feels like I am learning something new about my daughter and myself.

One week ago we found out that Olivia was tongue tied. It has made it very hard for her to nurse and she has not been gaining weight like a new baby should. Everyone I know has said that this condition is fairly common in newborns and should not take long to fix. That's easy for them to say! Being a new Mom, nothing feels common and normal.

At our two week well visit we found out that Olivia had not gained much weight at all and that we needed to have a procedure done to release her tongue as soon as possible. Currently, I'm sitting in the waiting room for an ear, nose, and throat doctor that I've never met, but I am supposed to trust with my baby's life.

I don't trust this doctor right now. However, I do trust the Lord and that's ultimately what matters most. God knew I would be in this situation being asked to trust Him in this way. I am so thankful that I can trust in God above everything else.

Thankfully, the procedure went well! I think I cried just as much as Olivia. I tried explaining the the doctor and his nurse that it was just my hormones going a little crazy! They were very understanding and took good care of Olivia and me.

I'm sure that this is just one of many situations that I will find myself in where I am asked to trust God with the life of my daughter. It's not easy, but that's what Olivia needs from me. I could worry, fret, and work myself into a frenzy. However, that is not what I want to teach Olivia. I want her to see God as trustworthy because I trust Him and Jon trusts Him.

Olivia has already started eating better which is an answer to prayer! Please continue to pray that Olivia gains enough weight to get back up to her birth weight.